So who am I...

Hubby and I went to a wedding last night of one of his friends from "back in the day". The thing that interests me about weddings, is that it's the 1-2 times per year that we run in to people we know, but only see at well...weddings. For the 4 hours or so that we are with these people, we can make some small talk with. We realize who we basically have nothing in common with anymore beyond the "so what are you up to these days", and the people that we've started to have more in common with, and you can never really predict who will eventually fall into which category. Then, we get home and say a few times "Man, he's put a bit of weight, huh" "didn't know they were having a baby" and all of those types of things. Make me wonder who I am... When the rest of them get home, am I the person that has "put on a bit of weight" is "wearing way too short of a dress" has "really let herself go" has "not quite bounced back from the last baby" or am I the "do you know if she works" person. I supose the comments aren't all that nice sometimes, but, I guess is human nature to speculate or compare people to the people they were 6-7 years ago when you went to school with them.

I love my life, don't get me wrong. I really would not have done anything differently, given the chance to do it all over again, but it is at these types of functions where I often don't feel "good enough". Nope, I didn't finish school. Does that bother me? Nope. Well, at least not 90% of the time. (besides, I can go back if I want to...so take that everyone!!)

So, then, who am I? I guess I'm the person who got married young, didn't finish college, had kids young, and has probably put on a few pounds! :) (But, I'm going to be the one having fun at 43 when my kids are both out of the house!!)

Speaking of kids, I cannot believe that Little Miss will be four months on Monday. That's 1/3 of a year for goodness sake. Where does the time go. I just wish she'd let me get some sleep at night. I'm getting sick of basically being up at 4am for the day. Buddy, on the other hand is driving me nuts when he's awake. Everything is "no" or pushing the limit somehow. Whether it's running down the street when I take him out of the car (for a little fella, he can sure run fast) or his refusal to let me change his diaper, or any number of things that escape me at this red hot second, he is certainly declairing to me "I'm my own person, and I want to do it MY way". (in fact, I let him wear his ScoobyDoo slippers to the grocery store yesterday. It just wasn't the battle I was picking for the morning!) He must get that from his father......

Speaking of kids, I have noticed a trend that I cannot stand. What makes parents think that they need to take their children everywhere with them. What happened to ADULTS ONLY social events? What happened to the good 'ole babysitter, for crying out loud. If people are nice enough to leave their children home, it seems to be always with "grandpa & grandma" (um, my parents have a lot better things to do on a Friday night than watch my kids....). In my humble opinion, if you have kids, you need to learn to pay for a baby sitter. Is $30some too high a price to pay to have 5 hours away? No, it's not. And, just so you know, NO it's not cute when you bring your kids everywhere with you. I'm sorry, it's not. I didn't pay MY babysitter $7/hour so that I could come and watch your children for you, or put up with them when I was trying to get away from kids for a few hours. Leave them home. It's okay. It's healthy. Really, it's okay.

I feel much better now.